My Journey

Welcome! I’m Roma Hammel.

As a nondual teacher and mentor, I invite you to journey where powerful practices reveal the radiance of your true nature and dissolve obstacles to living joyously. Rooted in the inherent nondual wisdom of fundamental consciousness, I share the route I’ve traveled. A compassionate physician led me into deep meditative states following a life-altering spinal injury. Amid a mid-life crisis, a sage Taoist revealed the art of transmuting suffering into peace. With the guidance of Judith Blackstone, visionary founder of the Realization Process, I released unresolved traumas, allowing me to live within my whole body—substantive and secure, open and responsive to the world around me.

Embarking on a path to embrace and express the fullness of your being, both in individual experience and in relation to others, can be profoundly transformative. With gratitude to my mentors, I invite you to awaken, embody your true self, and live joyously.

Decades ago, my spiritual exploration propelled me to delve into diverse perspectives on the nature of reality and the evolution of human consciousness. Inspired by visionary philosophers and groundbreaking insights from educators, anthropologists, and feminists, I earned a PhD in Integral Philosophy. This philosophy posits that consciousness is the essential structure of the human psyche, the essential structure of human reality, and is central to the evolution of the personal, interpersonal, and transpersonal domains of our lives. My dissertation documented that liberating oneself from distorted perceptions and unconscious beliefs in personal and social realms can irrevocably restructure one’s psyche, radically transforming one’s experience of self, other, and the universe. Realizing the oneness that constitutes your original nature is, at its core, a profound spiritual journey.

I founded the Advanced Realization Process Mentoring Program with a singular mission: to invite individuals on an extraordinary journey to live and teach authentically. This carefully-crafted eight-month program fosters profound nondual realization and authentic self-expression. Within an intimate and supportive environment, participants cultivate a profound kinship, a deep sense of belonging, and unwavering trust in the organic unfolding of the healing process. Through hands-on experiences, such as guiding meditations, facilitating somatic inquiries, and leading live healing sessions, they transmute insights into compelling teachings, unveiling the art of navigating life’s challenges with grace and courage. Embracing the role of a healing presence charts the course toward embodying consciousness in service of human flourishing.

With over three decades of practice in Neigong and Tantric Buddhism, I am empowered and authorized by Joe Hing Kwok Chu to teach Tao and offer wordless guidance, illuminating the radiance of our absolute nature. Whether you seek a vivid sense of living, a secure sense of being, the dissolution of obstacles to intimacy, or exploration of subtle realms of consciousness, I warmly invite you on a journey all the way home to your true self.

If you’re interested in the behind-the-scenes story, read more …

Light emerged slowly through the darkness of my troubled past. Recollections from childhood that kept me alive – the luminous lakes and white birch trees in northern Minnesota, the sparkling eyes of young children as I taught them imaginative dance, and the vibrancy of classical piano music – as I loved practicing for hours. I also loved reading after dark by the light of the transistor radio and chewing saltine crackers while trying to whistle. I loved solving math problems on Saturday mornings, canoeing on the boundary waters, and learning new languages. I eagerly married and moved to California to teach French and German.

Adulthood, however, also offered fierce challenges. Five discs in my back ruptured during my second pregnancy, and I became paralyzed. Bed-ridden for most of the next five years, I learned to meditate to alleviate pain and suffering. Gradually, very gradually, I let go of my fears and my grief. I came to terms with a profound sense of loss. Slowly, every so slowly, I grew to treasure small joys such as blooming daffodils, little children laughing, neighbors bringing food, and teen-agers folding my laundry and taking care of my kids. After a third major surgery, I miraculously learned to walk again. Unimaginably grateful, I felt wondrously alive.

I learned to swim, ride a bike, play guitar, and ski again. Subsequently, I returned to my great love of teaching. I taught high school English teacher and AVID (Advancement via Individual Determination), headed anti-racist efforts, and initiated systemic reform in public schools grades 4-12, universities and graduate schools. Then a mid-life divorce broke me open, uprooting childhood traumas that I had buried.

At that point, I knew my body needed deep healing. So I began practicing Qigong multiple hours daily. Seeking freedom. I explored what philosopher Alan Watts calls the false premise – that the self is something that can be known, that the self is the body, the sensations, the thoughts, the consciousness.

I went to graduate school at the California Institute of Integral Studies and was deeply influenced by the transformational visions of consciousness of integral philosophers such as Haridas Chaudhuri, Raimon Panikkar, Jean Gebser, Henryk Skolimowsky, Yong Ming Tang, Ken Wilber, and transformational actions of leaders such as Robert Vachon, Peter Reason, John Heron, Robert Kagan, and David Abrams, and the seminal views of philospher Thomas Kuhn and anthropologists Gregory Bateson.and Marimba Ani, and feminist bell hooks.

My dissertation Dark Grace: A Heuristic Inquiry into White Consciousness documents that visionary leadership to essential in order to radically shift structures of consciousness and worldviews which are themselves supposedly constitutive of what it means to be human, or fully human, and earned me a Ph.D.

I realized that inspiring others to engage in concrete social activism designed to facilitate personal, group, organizational, and institutional change (at educational institutions including the California Institute of Integral Studies, Stanford University, San Jose State University, San Diego State University, and in my local community) requires a high degree of coordination, communication, and cooperation. Establishing an emotional connection is essential to engage in transformational interactions. After more than three decades of service as an educational activist, mentor, and teacher, I retired from a career as a teacher-leader, with gratitude for the support of friends and allies and with appreciation of the importance of embodied nondual spiritual practices,

As my children had grown up and left home by then, I dedicated time to studying Buddhist sutras weekly for five years with Shaila Catherine, led weekly Buddhist study groups for over a decade focused around the sutra translations of Bhikkhu Boddhi and Thanissaro Bhikkhu, and the writings of Phillip Moffitt. I also led a weekly study group focused on the writings of, Adyashanti for five years. I was deeply influenced by the writings and dialogue processes explicated by David Bohm and led monthly Bohmian dialogue groups for three years. I took dozens of online courses with Sally Kempton and went on multiple retreats with notable teachers such as Adyashanti, Reb Anderson, Jack Kornfield, Angeles Arrien, and Alan Wallace. I completed a year-long Nondual Teacher Therapist/Training Program with Peter Fenner and a three-year Embodied Life Mentorship Program with Russell Delman.

Since meeting Judith Blackstone, founder of the Realization Process at Esalen in 2007, I’ve studied intensively with her (more than 1200 hours). When she asked me to replace her at Esalen in 2012, I was humbled and excited. A Senior Realization Process teacher now, I’ve taught RP more than 22,000 hours at Esalen, at my home in Los Altos Hills, CA, in New York, and globally. In 2021, I developed the Advanced Realization Process Mentoring Program to share what I’ve learned with others – and to learn from them, as we journey together towards spiritual maturity.

I’ve practiced Qigong since 1992, more than 34,000 hours. In 2018, Sifu Joe Hingkwok Chu authorized me to teach the Tao. The path is direct. It’s tantric. Tantra, translated as ‘the thread,’ refers to both the transmission of enlightened energy and the continuum of our original nature. Through practices transmitted heart-to-heart, we recognize our original nature and are freed of our defilements.

I am grateful to artist Lian Quan Zhen for his permission to share his artwork on my website. In his book Chinese Painting Techniques for Exquisite Watercolors, he writes about the artist’s spirit “blending … with the rhythmic vitality of nature… When painting a bird, it … is essential to capture the essence of the bird: its texture, activity and sound – its life. The bird should be able to communicate with its viewers.”

My deep faith that each person is first and foremost a spiritual being is grounded in this realization:

I directly experience the intrinsic luminosity of each person’s spiritual essence.