Presence – an expression of universal being, the formless substance of existence – is the light and radiance of consciousness, in which entire worlds arise and pass away. Adyashanti, The Way of Liberation, pg. 14
The mind of the body is effective pristine awareness. It is always present and knows what needs to be done. However, the mind of the body takes on habituations formed in the mind of emotion. The habituations distort the functioning of the body into reactions based on the projected world of the pattern, not on what is happening. Most patterns, and the emotional cores of the patterns, operate in the mind of emotion. Emotions can be released in awareness. The mind of awareness knows what we are and what arises in experience. The mind of awareness can refine the mind of emotion and dismantle habituated patterns. When we have a sufficiently high level of attention so that a situation can be experienced in awareness, the energy releases itself in the field of awareness, and we experience an arising and subsiding presence. Ken McLeod, Wake Up to Your Life. pp. 176-181 (underlining emphasis added).
Energy can be discharged in three ways. First, energy can be released in awareness. When we have a sufficiently high level of attention so that the situation can be experienced in awareness, the energy releases itself in the field of awareness, and we experience an arising and subsiding in presence. p. 176.
Irritation arises … intense anger followed by intense frustration.
A strong impulse to shout and scream arises …
Attention shifts from feelings to awareness.
Feelings dissolve, like a cup of salt in a vast clear lake.
Experiencing this boundless, luminous consciousness
Realizing that the person suffering from my anger is me …
Second, the energy can flow into action. The action is appropriate and effective because it arises directly from presence. In effect, the situation manifests what is appropriate. We are present to what is happening. The movement of energy in action is a response to what is arising in experience. p. 176.
Feeling shaky, have to pee, butt hurts from sitting, belly gripping, shoulders are tense and elevated, jaw is tight, forehead forward
A pause … tuning into the breath … slow and rhythmic, gentle calm ocean waves
Shoulders relaxing, belly and jaw softening
Experiencing the nourishing pleasure of the breath on the inhale, dropping into the pause before the turn around, the exhale long and luxurious, and almost immediately the lungs expanding again, muscles and diaphragm contracting, following the exhale, soft and sweet, like a gentle tropical breeze, and now breathing … breathing … breathing … dropping into the pause after the exhalation … dropping into the pause after the inhalation … shoulders softening, belly softening, feeling the inhalation to the toes, feeling the exhalation to the toes, thighs breathing, feeling the shimmering energy up and down the spine, each of the vertebra singing, connected, subtle micro-movements, gratitude
Third, without a frame of reference for action and without enough energy in attention to release the experience, the energy is not released in awareness nor released as an expression of presence. The unreleased experience evokes the possibility of not existing. p. 176.
I screwed up – I’ve ruined everything! I can’t think. My brain freezes. Near panic. Breath after breath. No thoughts. Just sensation. Adrenaline, tightening chest. How could I have done this? … the grasping, the clinging, the desire for things to be different … the shock and dismay flooding the body … My pride is wounded … and now self-judgment … a sense of self-condemnation.
Patterns operate mechanically. They are present in every area of our lives. They form around an unreleased core of experience. Their operation creates suffering in our lives. Ken McLeod, Wake Up to Your Life, 172-183.